12.3.09

Personal NSV (Non-Scale Victory) - March 12, 2009

As some of you may or may not know, I've been in therapy since the end of January, 2008... I actually have been seeing 2 different therapists, as well as I've been seeing a psychiatrist (re meds), and in group therapy.

The first psychologist I starting seeing was just for general depression/coping skills issues. It was my start to recovering from Binge Eating, but the therapist at Mental Health who specialized in eating disorders had a full docket at the time, so I started seeing her.

And yesterday, I graduated. We both came to the conclusion that I don't NEED her anymore! I have a strong base, now, and self-esteem! I know my triggers, and know how to deal with challenges. I can look at situations, both internal and external, objectively, and decide what I want to do with them!

It was such an amazing step, being able to tell my therapist that I didn't think I needed her anymore! And having her agree!!

It was really interesting to talk to her yesterday... She said that she had been hesistant to take me on, because she'd never had a patient with an eating disorder before, and wasn't sure whether or not she could help me. Before she would commit to being my therapist, she spoke to the eating-disorder specialist at Mental Health, who said to do what she normally does, and it would help me, even if it wasn't dealing specifically with my eating disorder.

I can no longer remember the last time I binged, but I know it was about a year ago. I no longer need food for comfort. I can enjoy food for what it is, and not use it as a crutch.

I am enough in and of myself.

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