10.1.12

I'm over the whole PMS thing.

Eat all the things?

As long as it's chocolate!!

Some coke zero please?

DID YOU SAY NO?!?!?!?

I DON'T THINK SO!!!!

Yeah, I'm feeling very Hulk Smash at the moment. I am a Red Tide of destruction. I am the antithesis of all the happy ladies on the feminine hygiene commercials. I am grumpy and sore and grumpy. And there has been something stabbing me in the general area of my uterus all day.

And I'm not even supposed to HAVE my period!!!

Stress from starting the second semester? Losing weight and eating healthy aging?

I just hope that Aunt Flo doesn't stick around long.

9.1.12

Dear Art History Class...

I feel I owe you an apology. You were pretty great today. You were interesting, sometimes funny, informative...

I'm sorry that I was so tired Thursday, and that coloured my view of you for the worse. Also, your unfortunate location in relation to the class before you.

I hope you accept my deepest and most sincere apologies, Art History class. Let's be friends, shall we?

Dear humiliation...

Or, should I say, dear Art History class...

I don't like you.

I'm sure it's not your fault. You're a perfectly harmless class. The teacher seems like a perfectly harmless professor. The room is a perfectly decent, airless classroom. It's not your fault that I thought that you would be more fascinating than harmless...

And it's certainly NOT your fault that you're 10 minutes after my previous class, and halfway across campus... And uphill.

And that I'm so, so fat.

And that I end up huffing and puffing the entire way up...

And that people end up looking at me...

*sigh....*

8.1.12

Lazy Sunday

Ahh, lazy Sundays.

Lazy, crampy Sundays.

Stupid uturus, craving chocolate and ice cream and making my back spasm!!

Luckily for me, I can plan out my points for dairy queen, AND, by joining the Blizzard Fan Club, I was able to get a Buy-One-Get-One-Free coupon! Noms AND savings!

Tomorrow is my busy day at school - 4 classes in one day, 8:30am - 6pm. I was thinking of going to movie night for my philosophy class, but if I'm still all crampy and arghy tomorrow, I think I'll head home and watch Project Runway All-Stars instead.

Discussion in the GDT about whether it's easier to lose 100 lbs or 30 lbs... I have to say, at my weight, dieting really isn't that hard. I mean, it's not as easy as eating fast food and junk food every day, but it's not torture. I'm not getting hunger pains. I'm not feeling like I'm making huge sacrifices. I still have to eat quite a bit of food every day; I have so many points that when I really eat healthy, sometimes it's hard to eat them all.

But it's such a long, long slog. What it lacks in immediate hardship it makes up for in the stretching out of time before me. When I think of how LONG I'm going to need to be dieting for... It makes me want to quit RIGHT NOW. I mean, I've been dieting on and off since the beginning of 2009 - The whole of 2009, and then half-assed attempts since then. That's 3 years of 27... 1/9th of my life. And where am I?

Nearly back at the beginning.

Is that good news for me? No, not really. Does it really look like I'm actually going to make it?

No, not really.

Am I going to keep trying...?

...

...

Blah. I guess so. I can't have my weight keep going up, at any rate.

I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl. I don't want to always be the fat girl.

7.1.12

How long has it been?!

My goodness, it's been a good many months since I've posted here! The last time I posted here, I'd only just been accepted to UVic!

I'm now at the beginning of my second semester!!!

Which, of course, means I moved to Victoria.

So here I am, in school, living in a new city... And ever so fat! At the beginning of the first semester, I dieted briefly. I ate 1200-1500 calories a day, and felt horribly sick. And then for the rest of the semester, and all through Christmas break, I ate fast food, junk food... I gained weight like CRAZY. I can't actually weigh myself right now, which I'm disappointed about.

So now I'm back on plan. I know a lot of long time dieters have gone off of weight watchers with the new points-plus changes, but I'm happy to stick with good old points tracking. I just find it easier, more convenient... Especially now that I can track on my phone or iPad on the go.

On top of that, Chris and I are coming to terms with the reality that we just can't spend like we used to. We're down to one income... Our fixed expenses are less, but our variable expenses have to less too. The funny thing is, it's actually cheaper down here to eat healthily than to eat fast food! What luck!!

So here I am, signing off... I'll try to post more frequently - Tell you how I'm doing in school, how the dieting is going, etc etc. Good luck to me!