So, yeah, this whole dieting thing hasn't been working so well. I try, and then I do well for a little while, and then it doesn't go so well. And I'm sure you guys all know, I'm so, so, so tired of being fat. I'm very tired of carrying around a refrigerator with me, everywhere I go. I'm tired of getting winded after walking just a block, if that. I'm having issues with my pottery class, because the wheels are positioned in such a way that I can't get much leverage, because my body is in the way.
That's a good way of putting almost everything in my life: My body is in the way.
So, you can probably see where this is going..
Yeah, I think I'm going to be looking at Bariatric Surgery; more specifically, I'll be looking at the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. My BMI is too high for the lap-band surgery (And is unlikely to get down that far without help), and I like that the Sleeve doesn't cut or re-route my intestines. Also, this can be performed laparoscopically, which helps for people who are extra-jiggly, such as myself.
I'm waiting for a call back from my Endocrinologist's office, actually, and they'll let me know when my consult with the Bariatric Surgeon is. I know I'm going to have to wait a long time for this, and I'm planning on making some changes towards having the surgery. My first step I started today. I'm quitting pop. Apparently, carbonated beverages are really bad when you have a teeny tiny tummy. I'm going to start meal planning as well, pretty quickly. I have a friend coming to stay for a couple of weeks, in the not-too-distant future, and I'm not sure how the meal planning will work with a third mouth. I know that the sooner I start all of this, the better off I'll be.
I'm also starting to think of what I'm going to have to say goodbye to. The post-op diet, and for the rest of my life (which, oh my God, is a LONG TIME), will be a high protein, low starch, low sugar diet, with a lot of vitamin supplementation. I will want to eat my protein first, and then fruits and veg, and then carbs if I'm still hungry. What are the foods I want to try while my stomach will still be happy to accept them? What should I eat before I have to go on my final diet? What will I miss the most? Sushi will be out, though I'll still be able to do sashimi and miso soup. Pasta will be a bad idea. I love toast, and I'll still be able to have bread, but they'll want it to only be high fiber, whole grain bread... And toast should be white, with butter and jam. Most desserts will be severely restricted. It's a good thing I won't be so hungry!!
About 3 years ago, I said in this blog that I would be disappointed in myself if I went for the surgical route... But I'm not disappointed. I know, from doing a bunch of research, that surgery isn't an easy way out at all. It will be an irreversible change, one that I will have to live with forever. I'm 28. I can't spend the rest of my life like this.